It Is What It Is -- Broncos Fire Shanahan

Well, it's been a nice ride.

138-86, two Super Bowl titles and three straight years out of the post-season.

I can't say that I am at all surprised. There were many people calling for his replacement after last season, but the Bronco's season-ended debacle led to the decisions that owner Pat Bowlen had to make.

It will be interesting to see what happens.

News conference tomorrow.

2008 In Pictures

So I found this wonderful collection of photos from 2008.

I'm posting a few of the photos, but they are all amazing. Take the time to look through them.

The first two parts have already been posted but the third one will come out tomorrow. I'll link it for you then.

It's amazing to consider what goes on across the world and how every culture is so different. Many of these photos come from places ravaged by natural disaster, torn apart from war, the remains of forgotten communities, the mechanical feats of the human race and the physical demands of athletics.

I am humbled by how little I was aware of some of these events.

These photos are amazing! I must warn you that some of them are rather graphic (bloodshed), but you have to click to view the ones deemed offensive, so your safe.


Click here for the first set

Click here for the second set

Faith

So I'm going to stray from my traditional posting style and take a moment to talk about faith.

As a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, my faith is an important aspect of my daily life, but I don't want to talk about my faith as a member of LDS Church. I am going to take some time to talk about faith in general. Faith beyond a denomination, faith beyond doctrine, and talk about faith that transcends everything.

I grew up attending non-denominational churches with my family and faith was a big part of our lives. But it has grown to be a part of every decision I make and every move I make.

Our Heavenly Father truly wants us to be happy and like a gardener he has crafted our lives and is helping us grow to reach our full potential.

My personal faith may be very different than yours. You may believe in Allah, Science or a Holy Trinity, but I feel that any type of faith can help people rise from the ashes of life to aspire to greatness.

I was shopping for Jenna's Christmas present I saw a sign that said "Faith is not believing that God can, It's knowing that He will."

My faith is not even close to perfect. I falter and I rarely find it possible to trust completely to take that first step into the darkness, but every time that I have I have been blessed immensely.
When I think of faith I like to think of the story in the bible when Peter desires to walk on water to the Savior and as he steps out onto the water and focuses on Christ he is able to walk, but when he is distracted by the tempest storm around him he struggles and falls.

Are we at all different from Peter? I don't think so. The water is comparable to the world we live on and when we focus our lives on Christ (or the center of our faith) we can accomplish anything we desire, but when we take our focus off Christ, we fall.

But be not dismayed, because who is there to save Peter????

School's Out Forever!

So it maybe took me a semester past four years but I finally graduated!

It hasn't really set in yet, but I am sure that when school starts next semester it will hit me. I think it will be amazing to do what I love and not have to worry about homework at the same time!

I did my final presentation for my capstone last week and my team rocked it (little shout out to Jeanette and Marianne for all their hard work this semester)!!! It was the culmination of four months of hard work from research to brainstorming to a lot of designing. I feel like the client was really pleased with our work too!

So I'm at a crossroads in life. BYU has offered to let me stay on as a graduate assistant and I am going to stay there until I find the right job for me. I'm really lucky to have a place that I can work while I transition it this quasi-adult life.

It will be sad to leave BYU behind and it will be unbelievably scary to leave everything that I have grown to love in these past five years.

I'm incredibly grateful for an institution that has really shaped me into who I am. I've learned so much while at BYU from an educational standpoint and I've grown in ways I didn't see imaginable.

But part of growing up is taking risks and jumping out into the world that is daring to eat me alive.

So here I come world (I say in a really dramatic stance because it's easy to have that stance from the comfort of my little Provo world).

Cold Winter Morning...Lovely Winter Meetings

Now that I am unofficially done with school (did my final presentation for my 485 class and it was pretty much BOMB) I'm ready to continue blogging about my life.

Due to the scheduling of my Capstone course and other finals I was unable to attend Winter Meetings in Las Vegas. It's too bad because it is just down the interstate from me, but apparently finishing my degree is too important.

I really wanted to get a chance to go to the job fair, but I am sure there will be more opportunities for me in the future.

I just wanted to note a few things:

1. The mets signed K-Rod to a really nice deal. Do I think 36 million dollars is too much for one of the most overrated positions in baseball...yes. I'm not sure if Frankie is worth that kind of money. Don't get me wrong, he's a great closer and he did break the single-season save record with 62 saves for the Angels last season, but 11 or some odd million dollars to year to pitch one inning every few days???? And you usually are just protecting a lead, get three quick outs.

2. CC Sabathia sign a seven year deal, I think it is 140 Million dollars. Now a real true Ace is a gem and CC is a great pitcher but 140 Million on a 290 lb. aging pitcher??? (Note: CC is 28, and that's not old, it's just in seven years I'm not sure how he'll be performing) If Frankie isn't work 26 million then CC is def. not worth 140. Now the Yankees need pitching and the Yankees buy talent so let's see how far this deal will get them.

3. No news on the Teixeira front yet. Its been pretty quite so I'm not expecting anything final to come out of Winter Meetings. I've read that he wants to sign by December.

4. The Rockies are looking to trade Carlos Gonzales (no-named outfielder with real potential acquired in Holliday trade). I'm sure hoping they get something big out of a deal with them. With Holliday gone they are going to need a big bat in the lineup and they NEED pitching still. I'm starting to doubt this Holliday trade and it's potential implications.

Ahh, Winter Meetings. A glimpse into the 2009 season, which I anxiously anticipating.

Little Know Fact... I'm an Astronomy Nerd

So, many of you have been forced to listen to me go on and on about the wonders of the universe and all that it holds.

There are so many fascinating things that we have yet to learn, and with every discovery we only discover that there is so much we only know.

A group of Dutch undergrads discovered a new planet. We have been discovering planets rotating stars for quite some time, but this is a unique discovery.

First I want to say how awesome is it that by studying light fluctuations or wobbles, and gravitational pulls, we can mathematically prove that other planetary systems exist.

For the most part we have found Jupiter sized planets in places where life is unlikely, but as it was explained to me that is because of the limitations of our technology. It is almost certain other solar systems exist that are similar to ours.

Anyway, this new planetary system travels around a star much hotter than our Sun, and it orbits the planet in less than three days.

I'll spare you the two-hour lecture about how cool astronomy is and just sum up my feelings with this: Astronomy is FASCINATING!!!!!

So this is an image taken from the Hubble Telescope of the star Fomalhaut. This is the debris that circles the planet and the close up is one of three planets that orbits the star. This is not a picture of the newly discovered planet, but I wanted to give you an idea of what this stuff looks like.

Also, astronomers hypothesize that earth-sized planets may be present in this solar system but they may be too dim to capture.

Me

The bad thing about you win some you lose some and some get rained out is that it applies not only in sports, but also in life.

Today I lost some.

Sporting World Update

School is literally consuming my life right now. There are so many things that I want to write about but I'll just give a little bit of attention to everything for you.

Brooke and I decorated her Christmas tree tonight. I love the holiday season!

Baseball America came out with its top prospects. I was a little surprised that Nick Adenhart was named the Angel's Angel's No. 1 prospect. Of the top-10 prospect, seven were pitchers which is a little unexpected. Kevin Jepsen ranked in at No. 7. It will be interesting to see what happens at winter meetings this year.

Also I had a random dream about Nick, it was strange. That is two prospect dreams within three weeks. Weird.

I'm not sure if the Angels will get all, or any, of the free agents they offered arbitration to. I'm hoping for Mark Teixeira but I'm not going to be all the surprised if He signs with a team with a lot more money like the Red Sox. I've heard that Jason Varitek will return to the Red Sox, so I don't know if they will sign Teixeira.

The 2009 Hall of Fame ballot was released. The voting will take place on Jan. 12. I'm excited to see who will make it in this year. Tommy John will be on the ballot for his final year (you get 15 years on the ballot). I'm not expecting him to make it, I just think it's interesting.
Check out this article on John and this one for the Hall of Fame voting information.

Plaxico Buress shot himself in the leg. Ha Ha Ha. Really? Seriously?

Following his arrest for weapons charges he was suspended by the NFL for four games and the Giants placed him on the non-football injury list, which means he can't return for the rest of the season.

The Broncos looked really good against the Jets. What I can't figure out is why they can perform so well in New York but choke in Denver against the Raiders. Honestly.

I'm heading into the playoff for my Fantasy League in first place. I used to think fantasy sports were a waste of time but, now I kinda like them. I'm kinda good at it.

Well this is all for now. I must go back to writing about Nike's marketing campaigns and the More Good Foundation.

Here's to only 10 more days of school left!!!!!

Thoughts on a Thanksgiving Morning

It is hard not to think about everything that I am grateful for. I feel as though my cup runeth over. I have been blessed abundantly in so many ways.

I have such an amazing family! I am grateful that through all the craze, divorces and issues we have pulled through it all by relying on each other. Today it is just my mother and I, we are going over to a friends house after we finish baking all the pies. Justin and Brooke are in Logandale with Brooke's family and Jeff and Jenna are in Kalamazoo with Jenna's family. This is the first time that the three of us have been apart on Thanksgiving.

Not to give all the love to my two older brothers, but I am remarkably blessed to be so close to both sets of my parents, my aunts and uncles and all my cousins. I love spending time with all of them and miss them all like crazy when I'm in Utah.

I have to recognize my framily, you know my friends that have become my family. I really have the best friends in the world. I can't express how lucky I am to have so many wonderful friends who care about me. From Grey's to boats to breakups and marriages we have all been there for each other, through our highs and our lows.

I am grateful for the Land of the Free and the Home of the Brave. Last night I got the opportunity to go to the Colorado Avalanche. During the National Anthem I found myself thinking about how grateful I am to the founding fathers who recognized the ideals and truths that have become the foundation of this Country. We might be going through some rocky times, but we will prevail.

I am grateful to be a woman. Not that there is anything wrong with men (well...). Women are powerful beyond anyone's expectations. I hope to retain my womanhood through all my endeavors in. I aspire to be like the strong women who have paved the way for me through the workplace, the political arena, in the home and in communities. I am grateful to those who had to sacrifice so much to design the path.

I am also really grateful to be able to watch my little brother Reggie grow up. I marvel at the world that he will experience, though only 14 years younger than me, his perspective will be remarkably different than mine. He is growing up in a post-9/11 society, he sees the bad with the good that at his age I never knew existed.

I am grateful to be educated. I really feel that knowledge is power. By gaining an education you better understand the world you live in and your place in it. I am especially grateful to be educated in an environment like BYU. I have been able to explore so many different subjects at the feet of brilliant minds, while getting a religious influence in my life as well.

I am grateful for my faith. It has shaped me and changed my heart in so many ways. I never imagined I would be the person that I am today.

There really is so much more that I am grateful for. Things that have shaped my life and things that are small and insignificant. I'm going to list a few without going into detail to spare you before you stop reading.

Sports (duh, did you really think I wouldn't mention that one), My car, Nordstrom, Diet Pepsi/Coke, Pie, Thanksgiving dinner, the recently lowered gas prices, Art, running shoes, airplanes, my work, the experience I had with the Salt Lake Bees and therefore the Angels, Boys who have hurt my heart or who's hearts I've hurt, communication tools, mentors, ugh...the Jazz (just because without them the Bees wouldn't exist J/K Hannah, Go Jazz!), Memories, movies and love!

Brick Walls

Brick walls hurt.

I’ve never run into one, but I’m guessing it wouldn’t feel good.

Running into life’s brick walls hurt. I’ve done that.

“The brick walls are there for a reason. They’re not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something.”

I’ll climb over, sneak around or bust through.

How bad do you want it?

To All You BYU Fans...

Well, that wasn't so pretty.

I sat in my office trying to get some homework done and watching the Holy War (because the next three weeks are going to kill me), but instead I couldn't focus on anything other than the game.

I was hopeful through the first three quarters, we were still in it.

Then the fourth quarter hit.

I am going to refrain from talking in detail my feelings about the end of the game, the team's performance and my overall feeling about our fans.

I want to represent my university and my department so I'm not going to publicly declare how much I don't like BYU fans. I'm not going to say that they are wretched, fair-weather fans who only wish to be affiliated with the team when they are doing something miraculous. I'm not going to talk about how the sold-out stadium is a mix of colors (when it should be all blue), and I'm not even going to mention the lack of signs, unruly behavior and true-blue fans.

I bleed blue. But like I said, I'm not going to mention my feelings.

I am going to lament the loss, but football is one small part of a bigger picture. I am going to support my Cougars, cheer them on in the Bowl game (even if the BCS system is crap). I'll be happy for the MWC, because in the end it will help BYU.

I'll Rise and Shout (even though as a member of press row I'm technically not allowed to cheer).

Anyone who knows me, knows I don't like the Red Sox. I don't like them because of all bandwago fans that jumped on in 2004 when they won the World Series.

I don't like Red Sox fans, but I respect their real fans, the ones who suffered through years and years of their team falling apart in the postseason. They made it through and two World Series titles later, saw their team develop into one of baseball's powerhouses.

I can't believe I am going to say this, but why can't BYU fans take a look at a die-hard fans and develop fanhood like that.

Your cheer for your team when they are up, and you mourn with them when they lose. You don't disown them.

Oh dang, Oakland is about to score. Gotta Go.

The Rivalry, a Parody

Friday Night Lights

Now I'm not a huge proponent of people who can't get out of the glory days of high school, but this post stands in tribute to my alma mater Douglas County High School and the school's quarterback and my cousin Eddie Williams.

During my days in High school our football team sucked. They never finished above .500 any of the years I was there.

But shortly after my high school departure in 2004, head coach Jeff Ketron managed to turn everything around. Ketron carried the team on his back during the rough years, but talent caught up with his schemes and DCHS managed to win a Colorado State Championship in 2005.

The winning continued, in 2006 they fell in the semi-finals to Mullen and in 2007 they went to the Championship game before falling to Grandview.

Last weekend I made the seven-hour drive to Fort Collins to see my cousin Eddie make his final high school championship run. The Huskies fell to Poudre (like poo-der) in the quarterfinals and Eddie had an emotional farewell to a game he has loved since he was a boy.

I loved watching Eddie play and I am sad to see his football career end, but happy that his four years in high school were filled with the football glory that makes high school so unique and fun.

I Could Tell From the Minute I Woke Up...

Hello World,

Please forgive me for not updating my blog for over an entire month. I've been trying to decide what direction to take this thing, and as I was deciding I got really distracted by this evil little thing called school.

Here is a brief update:

I have one semester of school left.

I'm applying to a number of internship programs for my first post-graduation year, I won't really know if I am leaving this little Provo town until I just before I leave.

If I don't get accepted, I'll stay with BYU Athletic Communications for another year, yeah more time in Provo but hey -- it's a job. Maybe I'll be back with the Bees too.

Anyway, I don't have much time so I will just leave you with a quick reminder of my excitement over David Price, the man's a stud. He can't help that he is just that talented. The Phillies may have won the world series, but everyone will remember the Rays of 2008.

Matt Holliday is to become a member of the Oakland A's. Smart move for the Rockies? I think so. They can get some pitching out of the deal and they move the all-star while they acquire something from him. I'll always be a Holliday fan. Do you think it was right?

I'm waiting for the Angels to sign Mark Teixeira. I think it would be the best free agent sign of their off-season. They exercised options on Valddy and Lackey, but they are still fitting the pieces together. It looks like they won't sign Garland, opening the fifth starter role to one of my boys out of Triple-A, I'm hoping they keep Loux in the bullpen and the starter spot goes to one of the Nick's (Adenhart or Green). It would be cool for Ortega, but I'm rooting for Salt'n peppa.

BYU is no longer a BCS buster, but what I think all the fans are forgetting is that Bronco is trying to establish a foundation for the program to return to greatness. This is only his fourth year as head coach and BYU is 9-1 right now. Stop complaining, because next year when the team is amazing y'all be back on the bandwagon.

Hello Little Boys Little Toys

So I am fairly certain that September 2008 has been the longest month of my life. I feel like I could have fit my entire summer in stupid September. I only curse the month because it yielded the return of school, chilly weather, and the end of the Bees season.

I tried very hard to let go of my poor disposition, and after having crappy terrible days where I fought with my apartment complex and got parking tickets (ala BYU Police) I decided that it was time for sending positive vibes out into the universe.

So here are the positive things on my mind that have to do with September.

1.David Price - 2007 overall No. 1 draft pick makes his ML debut and makes his first start. After tossing four scoreless innings in his first start he struggled and allowed two runs in the fifth, quite the promising outing for the Rays' pitcher. I find in unlikely that the lanky lefty will make the post-season roster, but I relish in the debut of a young prospect. I find in remarkable that he could begin his first professional season in Single-A and make his way all the way to the majors.

2. BYU Football - Despite the chaos of losing the SID days before the season opener, the season has gone quite well. We've had an incredible amount of media attention this season (check out the upcoming issue of ESPN mag). The team is still undefeated and I'm looking forward to TCU and Utah.

3. Denver Broncos /Jay Cutler - Don't let anyone fool you, not many analysts thought the Broncos would be 3-0. People suspected that Cutler would have a breakout season, but even with the expectations Cutler's performance is nothing shy of dazzling. Its about time Denver had some luck.

4. Peach as a baking ingredient - Justin's home owners brought over an amazing peach pie that I could not get enough of. Since then I have discovered the joy of baking with peach. I've made a tart, cobbler (amazing!) and pie. I'm still deciding what I am going to make next. Last year it was pumpkin, this year it's peach.

5. October - So it's just around the corner and I love this month! I'm not looking forward to the snow and wearing coats again, but I love the post-season and I love Halloween. I'm still working on a costume but I'm thinking a cute version of Champ Bailey, let me know what you think.

Experimentation

I'm working on the whole blog style writing thing from my profession and I am going to do some research and work on my blog writing by using this as an experiment. Get excited, much more blog goodness to follow.

Optimism Shot

Umm.... Maybe you've already noticed but it's cold outside. I needed a jacket to go out at night. This sucks.

My Last First Day of School

So I'm starting my last semester of college on Tuesday. I can't wait!!!!!
I wish that I was already done because I feel ready to move on from the school phase of my life.

It is strange that I have been out of my parents house for four years, and I am embarking on my adult life. I don't quite feel like an adult, but in my experience I've learned that you never feel any different.

Saying goodbye to the summer is sad, I'm not ready for the cold weather and gloomy skies that accompany Autumn in Utah.

Despite my pessimism for the end of summer and the return of school, I've decided to write a list of all the things that the changes of the season brings that I like.

1. No more sweating in the blazing sun.
2. Fall clothes, so many more options.
3. The World Series and football.
4. Baking with Pumpkin ingredients.
5. The Broncos.
6. Halloween costumes.
7. Back-to-school sales.
8. Sweaters.
9. Tucanos, for FREE!!!
10.GRADUATION!!!!!!

Ok, so maybe my list is a little bit of a stretch, but I'm trying to stay positive here.

So I haven't had much to write about during these past few days. It is rather uncharacteristic of my to not voice my opinions or beliefs.

With summer coming to a close and school coming in my imminent futures I am faced with a strange and puzzling situation.

I do not want to face the real world, I do not want to grow up and become a responsible adult. Call it peter pan syndrome, call it fear, I don't really care. All I know is that it sucks.

Lucky Loux

I feel the need to inform the world of the story of my favorite former Salt Lake Bee Shane Loux. After spending four seasons out of the Major Leagues, Shane returns to the Big Leagues this time as a Los Angeles Angels.

Shane was drafted out of high school by Seattle and spent years and years in the minor leagues as one of their top pitching prospects. In 2003 Shane made his ML debut, and spent both 2003 and 2004 bouncing between Triple-A and the Majors.

He missed the 2005 season because of Tommy John surgery and returned to the minors with the Kansas City organization. After having another surgery to improve his circulation in his legs, he was not picked up for the 2007 season.

He spent his time coaching in Arizona until he got a try out with the Angels. He was assigned to Salt Lake, knowing that his place was working as a mentor to pitching prospects Nick Green and Nick Adenhart.

Yet Shane experienced an insane amount of success when he returned to organized baseball. He led the team with 12 wins and was on track to break the season-high wins record before he was recalled to the Angels.

Now he has his chance to show Mike Scioscia what he has left in him. I don't expect Shane to stay with the Angels for the rest of the season, but I am sure he will be there when they make their post-season October run, then who knows what next season will bring.

CHECK OUT THIS STORY I WROTE FOR THE WEB SITE

Free Fallin

So I finally got to see my favorite artist slash boyfriend perform live. Although I had a stressful day and was a little perturbed going into the show Mr. Mayer did not disappoint. He was every bit as amazing as I could hope for. I will definitely make it to more of his shows in the future.

He preformed a cover of Tom Petty's Free Fallin, and he interpretation of the song was amazing. Check out his version from the "Where the Light Is" DVD and you'll see what I mean.


I can't embed the video into my blog but click this link and it'll take you there so you can be amazed.

I also should add that he is a phenomenal guitarist. I knew this going into the show but all the hype around him did not leave me disappointed.

My only not-so-pleased experience was that he didn't leave Jen for me. What a jerk, right?

A Few of My Favorite Things

Ok all I have recently discovered these great new things that need to be shared.
I must preface two of these with the following disclaimer: If you are not familiar with the Mormon culture, or more specifically the Utah County culture, you may not understand exactly what is so great about these blogs. No worries, the third is to be enjoyed by all.

Seriously So Blessed

Random Utah County Greatness

Stuff White People Like

"I see great things in baseball. It's our game - the American Game." -- Walt Whitman

Check out this story on Josh Hamilton

So, for the past few days I have had baseball on my mind, I know I know…big shocker.

With the anticipation of the All-Star break I was starting feel pangs of sadness because the wonderful midsummer classic, shows that we are just that, mid-summer. In reality we are closer to 2/3 through summer, which means that there isn’t very much of the baseball season left.

So, as I was thinking of why baseball is so great and why this summer, the summer that I have been getting paid to watch baseball, was one of the best times in my life.

On Monday night I sat in the press box, with my sub-par chicken parmesan compliments of the suite catering staff and the LHMSE cooks, I looked over at the TV to watch the Home Run Derby, and who was up? None other than Mr. Josh Hamilton himself.

So I will write about what makes Josh Hamilton’s single-round 28 home runs as amazing and unforgettable as they were.

For a sport that has been clouded by the use of illegal substances and was forever changed, it was refreshing to witness a moment when the beauty of the human spirit could shine through the darkness that clouds the sport.

Everyone acknowledges that Hamilton’s story is just a hop, skip and a jump away from a Hollywood hit, because it was his personal strength that overcame something that I have seen consume the lives of others, and it is his personal perseverance that keeps this miraculous story going.

For those of you who are unaware, Hamilton was the overall first draft pick out of high school and received a $4 million signing bonus, which was squandered away to feed his drug addiction. Hamilton was banned from baseball because of his drug habit and was so consumed by the addiction that most people thought he would never break out of it.

But the young Hamilton made a complete 180 degree turn in his life and straightened out. He attributes so much of what he was able to do to the Lord’s help and blessings, which is incredibly refreshing to see someone so talented with humility.

I’m not going to get into a lot of the details because I don’t know all of them and because you can read about them, as they are all over the media right now.

What I want to acknowledge is that, who Josh Hamilton is, and what he has done is what makes sports so great. He made poor choices and he almost lost his life, but he fought through it and he has become the kind of person that I want my eight year old little brother to look up to.

Hamilton has become a hero, and the kind of hero that is worth looking up to. It is no longer the juiced-up players who can hit the long ball, yet spend their time in the courts.

Josh Hamilton has just done something amazing for baseball.

My Year

So it has been a while and I know that everyone is wondering why I stopped writing and I am going to say it is because sara moved back.

Anyway, I have a really boring life because I love my job so much that everything pales in comparison and when the team is out of town I just can't wait for their return.

So, with the team returning tomorrow I will take some pictures during the home stand and I will post them and all will be wonderful.

Also, I get to see my love John Mayer in less than three weeks!!!!

Extra Innings

The thing about baseball is with 156 games in one season, nobody expects perfection. Life isn't over when you drop one game. You're bound to make a mistake when you have 100 fielding chances per month. You're considered an above average player in you get a hit 1/3 of your total at-bats.

They say the hardest things someone can do is try to hit a moving object. Therefore baseball is bound to be challenging when the main task is to do that.

It's a game of skill and a game of endless hours of hard work.

Because at the end of the season the team that works hardest will have more wins and be the better team.

I like it, losing isn't fun, but it isn't the end of the world.

You win some, you lose some and some get rained out.

Stop This Train

Growing up is inevitable. We have not choice but to do it. I've been fighting this process for quite some time. I feel like life is too short, too sweet and too enjoyable to spend tall my time trying to get ahead.

I've recently discovered what I want to do for my career, and I'm really happy doing it. I can't imagine doing something else and being anywhere near as happy.

So I've been spending a lot of time working and trying to do well. I realized that I've been growing up and not even realizing it.

I would rather spend my time growing up an enjoying it rather than fighting the process and missing out on so many wonderful opportunities before me.

Beside, I've recently learned that you're never too old to dress up like a cowboy and play with toy guns like little kids.

We Like Our Dogs With Mustard and Relish

I'm waiting for my call to come.

Just like the 24 players on the Salt Lake Bees roster, I'm working hard trying to impress someone so they'll take me up in Anaheim.

The pressure is there on every move. I need to take every chance to be the best I can be and to do the best I can do.

Now I know this sounds silly because I am not actually playing baseball, but I'm trying to work my way into the Bigs. Only on the communications staff.

I love baseball, like an insane amount and It is where I want to be.

I Won't Hesitate No More

When I was reviewing Sara's comment from my previous post it really got me thinking why in the world did I post that on my blog. What in the world was I thinking?

But then I remember I put it there for the intent to bring joy for one person. Instead I really made a fool of myself on the internet for anyone to see.

So, it got me thinking: Why Do We Do the Things We Do?


Meaning, what in the world could posses our normally sane minds to act the way that we do sometimes. I know I have done some stupid things to get a laugh out of a group of people. I've acted like a fool to get a certain boy's attention. I've done some foolish things just because I could and I just don't know why in those moments it seems completely worth it.

Typically it makes for a good laugh down the road, but sometimes it brings a great deal of embarrassment, typically in the name of attention.

For Sara

Twice as much, aint twice as good

I'm really grateful that not everyone is exactly the same.

Right now my mind is lost in a world of assessing liquidity of made up organizations for my accounting course. In case you were wondering, I have no idea what an acid test ratio is but I know that it is important to investors.

While I don't understand accounting at all, I realize the beauty in others' minds which understand these crazy concepts. Perhaps to some people they are grateful that I can write a great press release and design s brochure.

I am glad that we have our own strengths and weakness, which enables people to find a niche.

This subject was brought to my attention recently when I was contrasting different personalities. I am so glad that everyone is different. I am glad there aren't a million people running around who are all the same.

These difference make human relationship complex. It can be frustrating but there is a beauty behind it.

Come on baby, give me a little more you

Seriously. Please read the following article: http://www.denverpost.com/sports/ci_8372785

I counted nearly ten terrible cliches that make me ashamed to call myself a sports writer.

I realize the writers intent, but I do not see it as amusing or entertaining. I see it as a reason to question who does the hiring down at the Denver Post.

On the bright side, like Woody Paige has said, there is bright skies in the Avalanche's future and I look forward to seeing what the great names in Colorado history will do now that they are together again.

Heck, maybe Roy should come out of retirement.

One Day I'll Turn Around... See Your Hand Reach Out

So strange day slash strange post.

I'm pretty mad at the establishment of Taco Bell. I literally waited in line, because I was unable to leave, for around 20 minutes. I tried to call the complaint number, 1 800 TACO BELL, but don't worry, that number is not right. It is really 1 800 TACO BEL. Then, you hit two for customer to speak with a representative and then they tell me all lines are busy and to give me feed back via their Web site. I'm ticked.

Then today at the wonderful world of Gold's Gym a metal shard off of my 10-pound dumb bell lodges itself into the knuckle of my right index finger. I wasn't exactly sure what had happened I just knew my finger hurt and I was bleeding. So I finished my workout and head home.

It wasn't until I was in the shower when I decided to clean the wound that I discovered the metal shard. I couldn't get it out. I almost freaked out in the shower and I thought there was a chance that I might pass out.

Once I got out of the shower I pulled it out with some tweezers. It was pretty well stuck inside of my finger. YUCK!!!

Then of course I rinsed it out with rubbing alcohol because my tetnis shot has worn off (remember when I got pertussis a.k.a the whooping cough).

Man, what a day

I'm not so sure if I'm sure of anything anymore

I'm taking a tip from Carrie, from sex in the city.

I've decided that in life we have great loves, or some of us are blessed to have great loves. You know, those relationships and associations that really change who we are. These are the ones that are difficult for us to get over because it is letting go of someone who changed part of who we are.

It is quite possibly one of the most beautiful things that can happen to a person. Imagine allowing someone to be intimate enough with us that they change us.

These great loves leave us sad and lonely at the end of the road, but I've decided the emotion can be morphed into a sad hope. Sad hope is closing the door on the past with a longing in our heart to return to the day before the pain that caused the door to close, but it is done with hope and gratitude in our hearts.

Gratitude for the great love that changed us, and hope for healing and more great loves to come.

Let us try to look forward with the gratitude and hope that will propel us through our dry monotonous routines, until they no longer feel monotonous.

Our great love was just one chapter in the book of our life, and although it seems like we will never have another great love, we will as our journeys continue.

Let us all hope that we will be blessed to have more great loves in our life.

half a year later...

So maybe I didn't do so well at this whole blog thing. But, for my dear friend I am going to try to do this again, only this time with more resolve.

This post will be very short but the next one to follow will be magnificent.

I've got a lot on my mind. There is a lot to deal with right now.

I'm still trying to figure life out. Every day is a new experience and there are more things to deal with and just when I think I have a grip on things everything changes. I suppose that is the beauty behind it all.

Well good night everyone, and until next time ciao!