Monday, October 17, 2011

Dear Life,

Growing up is not always easy. Being an adult, accepting responsibility and acting maturely is not what I always want. It’s rarely the easiest thing to do in any given situation.

Maybe I spent the better portion of my adolescents and young adulthood escaping responsibility, but I’ve found that a huge part of my growing process has come with the realization that I am solely responsible for my happiness and for my reactions to situations. It is up to me to process and respond to circumstances that are unpleasant and it is up to me to make decisions that will bring me success and joy.

Becoming the kind of person that I want to be is a bit of a learning process. Every time I feel like I’ve figured something out, you my dear life throw me another curveball and I find myself standing at the plate baffled at the pitch after I swung and missed.  

With this process, I hope that those around me are willing to employ the great gift of grace toward me, a certain amount of forgiveness and a lot of love. I sure hope that this gift is something that I am ALWAYS willing to share with those around me.

I find that I get frustrated with those around me that aren’t embarking down the road I’m on with me, that they too are not striving to become the same kind of person I want to become, or perhaps they aren’t sure what kind of person they would like to become so rather than become they stay at the same stage.

I had an awakening, curveball type of experience today that showed me I need to be careful with the expectations I hold those around me to. I need to be quick to forgive and slow to anger, quick to understand and slow to pass judgment.

Just do me this favor today, be quick to forgive, even if it is not completely deserved. Just give someone a break today, because they’re just trying to figure it out too.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Powder Keg of Emotion


I’m a walking bundle of emotions. So many emotions are swimming through my body.

I once went to a communication training course and the instructor said that we have a bucket of emotions in our body that we have to release every so often otherwise our emotions will overflow and we won’t be able to control the release of these emotions. Learn how to let some emotional water out of our buckets is what she was teaching… apparently that’ll help us communicate (Which I agree with at times, but we are emotional beings and sometimes we need to convey our emotions… off topic).

Today my emotional bucket tipped over because of the sudden emotional downpour inside of me. Too much is going on right now. Too much for me to handle all at once, and the result is an emotional wreck.

If left to my own thoughts for too long, I begin to cry.

If left to read the words of others for too long, I begin to cry.

If talking, I begin to cry.

If listening, I begin to cry.

Let’s just sum it all up by saying that there has been a lot of crying.

Tears of sorrow, worry, guilt, joy, peace, humility, gratitude… you  name, I’m feeling it.

Gosh, I hope this passes soon.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Lack of Cable is Ruining My Life

Guess what awesomeness went down last night. Walk-off... Grand freaking Slam...

And I missed it.

so sad.

So I have decided that when I sign a long-term lease (right now it's month-to-month) I will be getting cable. I miss watching Sportscenter, I miss being updated. Thanks be to twitter to keep me updated on the go. (follow me @jillian_will)

I live a very sad life now.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Marriage

My brother Jeff got married over the weekend.

The wedding was BEAUTIFUL!!!!! I had such a great weekend and congrats to the newlyweds.



Here are some photos that a few people snapped from the ones the real photographer was taking...

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Sorry

I'm aware that this blog is typically used for communication about sports. So please forgive the fact that I  have ventured away from the norm for the past little bit.

It is caused partly by my lack of cable television so no sportscenter, and because of the quality of the teams that I support.

Anyway, don't hate me but I wanted to share the new MUTEMATH. I have hipster friends, this is what happens, I now get excited about music.